“If it is to be, it is up to me.” by William H. Johnsen is one of my favourite quotes.
With this mindset, I take an active and ‘now’ approach to make my dreams come true. ‘Active’ includes mind and behaviour: being persistent in achieving my short and long term goals, and keeping to my vows (vigilance in self-care).
My dreams are an ongoing ‘homework’. I am able to progress in my life-journey, and I am grateful for having experienced my turning point.
In the month of July, 2015AD, my diagnosis, suggestively changed, from Major Depression to Bipolar Disorder. This meant that my medical treatment would change from 60mg of Prozac to only 20mg; and with mood stabilizers like Lamictal, Zyprexa, and Dosulepin.
These four types of medicines are anti-depressant, anti-convulsant, anti-psychotic, and tricyclic anti-depressant: they are believed (supported with scientific research results) to effectively treat Bipolar Disorder. This new treatment was to continue on a fortnightly schedule because my Doctor was cautious about the effects of the new medication regime.
My last doctor’s appointment was in April, and my next will be ten weeks down that road. Treatment intervals have progressed from two weeks to two and a half months…
My perception changed: what used to feel like ‘cloudy skies’, now felt like ‘rays of sunshine’ seeping through those same cloudy skies. I see hope!
I am happy with the new medications. After this treatment phase, I will make greater headway into the maintenance phase. I have no idea how long this will take to achieve stability but I look forward to my full recovery. Then my dreams will come true, one by one.