My Dreams Come True?

2015AD was a turning point,for me, and 2016AD is my dreams come true!My Dreams Come True

“If it is to be, it is up to me.” by William H. Johnsen is one of my favourite quotes.

With this mindset, I take an active and ‘now’ approach to make my dreams come true. ‘Active’ includes mind and behaviour: being persistent in achieving my short and long term goals, and keeping to my vows (vigilance in self-care).

My dreams are an ongoing ‘homework’. I am able to progress in my life-journey, and I am grateful for having experienced my turning point.

In the month of July, 2015AD, my diagnosis, suggestively changed, from Major Depression to Bipolar Disorder. This meant that my medical treatment would change from 60mg of Prozac to only 20mg; and with mood stabilizers like Lamictal, Zyprexa, and Dosulepin.

These four types of medicines are anti-depressant, anti-convulsant, anti-psychotic, and tricyclic anti-depressant: they are believed (supported with scientific research results) to effectively treat Bipolar Disorder. This new treatment was to continue on a fortnightly schedule because my Doctor was cautious about the effects of the new medication regime.

My last doctor’s appointment was in April, and my next will be ten weeks down that road. Treatment intervals have progressed from two weeks to two and a half months…

My perception changed: what used to feel like ‘cloudy skies’, now felt like ‘rays of sunshine’ seeping through those same cloudy skies. I see hope!

I am happy with the new medications. After this treatment phase, I will make greater headway into the maintenance phase. I have no idea how long this will take to achieve stability but I look forward to my full recovery. Then my dreams will come true, one by one.

My Dreams Come True

4 thoughts on “My Dreams Come True?

  1. Good to hear your making progress on your treatment. A lot of people with that diagnosis had a different diagnosis when they were children, e.g., ADD or ADHD (Attention Deficit Disorder OR Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder). Then when such a person reaches the age of majority (adulthood) the diagnosis gets changed to Bi Polar. No different symptoms or anything. Just another birthday. I always wondered about that.

    Another thing I notice about people treating for Bi Polar is that they often stop taking their meds because they 1) don’t like taking them OR 2) they think they don’t need them anymore because they are “better”. And some of them self medicate with other drugs: marijuana, meth, alcohol. I wouldn’t wish Bi Polar disease on anyone. It’s really tough.

    Good luck to you.

    1. Thank you for taking time to read my blog. And I appreciate your comments.
      It happens for people with Bipolar to refuse medication. I think the bitter pill to swallow is the idea that one has to take the medicine for a lifetime. I was in denial too. And I stopped my medication as well.
      As Bipolar is a tricky friend/foe, often and too many times, patients will stop their medication as they feel happier, and are leaning towards another hypomania/mania episode. I can understand the logic to stop medication at this point because I’m already feeling all right and I’m so happpy.

  2. Hi Cheng, Wow! I’m happy to hear of this great progress you have had with your diagnosis. I know you are happy to be seeing the ‘rays of sunshine” rather than the “cloudy skies” all the time. I wish you the best of luck and I hope that every single one of your dreams will come true.

    1. Hello Gina,
      Thank you for your comments and your wishes.
      It’s a mixed feeling of happiness, relieved, assurance, a bit of sadness to see ‘rays of sunshine.’ I’m grateful to be in this part of my life journey.
      Best wishes to your success.
      Sincerely, Cheng

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